Sunday, June 21, 2020

Reelfoot's Glory Hole Canoe Trail

      Faint light began to spread across the early morning sky before the Sun finally broke the horizon. The steady hum of the dual exhaust on my husband's truck in my ear as we navigated our way Southeast. 

                Sunrise in the sideview

     Less than two hours after daybreak we launched our kayaks into Reelfoot Lake. A flock of white cranes and a wayward racoon greeting us as we made our way down Grassy Island and the start of the Glory Hole Canoe Trail. 

    Canal at start of Glory Hole Canoe Trail

    Summer was upon us as was the usual heat and humidity of the South. We hoped to beat the worst of it by launching early and it seemed the weather would accommodate us. 

     A cool breeze greeted us as wet set off, following channel first hemmed by reeds and Lilly pads with gnarly Cypresses jutting from the water. The sounds of frogs calling for possible mates and a Bluebird nestled in the branches sang to us. 

    Sun peeking through the Cypress trees

   The breeze brought with it the smell of fresh clean linens, so crisp and fresh as only Nature can smell. We meandered down the canal, dodging off track to explore a rather impressive knook of Cypress. Duckweed floated upon the surface but with it pink flower petals from bushes that clung to the knobby knees of the Cypress and the Sun shine down through their branches casting shadows about. 

           Flower petals atop duckweed

  Calm and quiet enough to hear the buzz of the bees feeding on the pollen of the pink flowery bushes. We continued on staying left as the channel opened up into Buzzard Slough. An otter quickly dropped off the base of Cypress and slid into the dark waters. Further down a Bald Eagle flew from his perch and followed the channel until he was out of sight. 

       Marker on Glory Hole Canoe Trail

  The waters quickly became soupy with duckweed, making paddling arduous. The decision was made to turn around and head left further down into Buzzard Slough. Ducking through Cypress we headed South, actually choosing to paddle between the gnalred bases of Cypress rather than the open waters of the channel. 

  Paddling among the weathered and flared bases of the Cypress we marveled at their sizes and shapes. The gaping holes wore into their bases, the flowering bushes that seemed to filter tiny bits of soil from the water with their roots which formed micro biotic islands nestled in the bases and knees of each Cypress present. The bark of some twisted and wrapped around the trunks while others ran vertically and even a few Cypress that shot out horizontally along the waters surface. 

                Dead Twisted Cypress

  A fishing boat began to make its way by us in the channel, I expected some waves from its wake given the short distance between us. I was surprised to find very small waves had actually made their way to us, so small they were of little notice. 

  We continued on further, paddling between the Cypress before crossing the channel and turning back North. Here the bases of the Cypress seemed larger with less bursh and bush about their bases. The other unfortunate part to this side of the channel at this point in the morning was the lack of shade. We quickly crossed the channel again seeking the long shadows of the Cypress for solace from the rising Sun. 

              Finding the shadier spots

   The Sun began to creep toward it's crest in the sky and the humidity began to cling to our skin. We paddled on, navigating our way back into the narrow channel between the Lilly pads and reeds with our arms aching and the breeze had dropping too the occasional status. 

  We made our way back to the foot of the small boat ramp we had launched from. Our arms ached, sweat glistened on our skin, and our love and respect of Reelfoot had only intensified. 

   I am enchanted by this little quake lake so full of life, decay, and beauty all mixed into it's shallow waters. I'm curious as to how it will marvel me upon my next trip, for it never fails to do so. 
  
    

Friday, June 19, 2020

It's been awhile.....

   It's been awhile, about 3 years actually. I've thought about picking this blog back up a hundred times and obviously I finally did. 

    I typically kept this blog restricted to an educational resource based style for those looking to adventure off the beaten path. Today I'm going to take us in a bit of a different direction. 

   I've done a lot in the time I've been gone and traveled many miles in more than one way. One of the places I found myself..... was lost. 

   I became an Ambassador to an outdoor blog for women, rose in the ranks to run day to day operations, and while it was an amazing adventure, road tripping across the country, making new life long friends, working with/meeting amazing women, and enjoying new adventures I thought I'd never get too, it was also when I lost myself. 

   There was always major pressure to be nice, incessant whining, contradictory actions regarding operations, constant bombardment of notications, people being critical of your work both behind the scenes and on the front lines. It was trying to say the least, despite it all, I stuck it out because I believed in what the blog was about. 
 
   You're next question I'm sure, what happened? Well making to the top isn't all it's cracked up to be for the aforementioned reasons, but also being at the top affords you a different perspective on many things. Sentiments of care seemed perfunctory, alterior motives became clear, and an obvious lack of appreciation of more than just myself was revealed to a level of actual disrespect. All of this is without mention of the lack of leadership and guidance by the founder, in fact, an almost complete absenteeism. The cracks that seemed small at ground level were now from the top, huge gaping Canyons that traced the entire landscape.

    Fractured was my reality, broken was my spirit and pure disappointment rattled my core. Despite it all, I respectfully resigned my position and held my head high because I knew I had done my best, given my all and done it all while being genuine. 

    Resignation isn't in me, I'm a fighter through and through but you also have to be able to accept certain things and certain people as they are. There is no change for them, only years of wind and water could move their hearts and my waters just don't run deep enough at my age for things that had become so blatantly disingenuous. 

  Do I regret it? Absolutely not, it was one amazing adventure where I was apart of something I never imagined I could be. I made amazing friends, worked with such capable strong women but it also helped me realize I didn't need to be apart of it to keep doing what I do and that's inspiring others to have their own adventures. 

  leading a group paddle trip with beginners

  I kept in touch with many of my fellow Ambassadors/co-workers as well, even meeting up to adventure with them or act as guide for them after my departure and had no harsh feelings for their continued involvement. It took a little awhile but almost every single one of those also left the blog on their own accord, for their own reasons, and in their own time. That spoke volumes to me, it affirmed my thoughts and actions. 

   I've drifted now from them for sometime while rediscovering myself but that isn't quite right or moreover not where I stopped. I kept going once I found myself again and also discovered my worth. I've always lacked confidence and had low self esteem in more ways than just appearances. I realize now my worth is much much more than I ever imagined it to be, that I am in control, and I make the rules.  It's a very powerful feeling, I've spoke of something akin to it in an article I did for the major blog once, but I hadn't yet truly achieved it. I thought I had, but it took a vast amount realization, awareness and acknowledgement of conditions to unequivocally reach what was undoubtedly my worth. 

   I am more me than I ever have been and unapologetically so. Does that makes sense? I am uncensored, raw, real and an enigma all rolled in one big contradictory ball which my clumsy self will probably trip over. I value people for who they are, the beauty of their souls which is reflected in their genuineness, sense of humor, and treatment of others. I am fascinated and continually enamored by people while desperately needing to depart their company to seek solace in the wilds of nature. 

   Reflection of trees on Cumberland River

  I wonder now how to reconnect with those I drifted from. I also wonder how they'd react to the new me. There are some I doubt it would shock very much and those are the ones I want at my side for they saw my worth from the onset.